Taking the first step

At the start of this year I decided that I will write a little more than usual and also post it on my website . But since the last few days I have been writing and deleting stuff, not knowing what to write, how to write, should it be a poem, a story, am I writing this good, is what i am writing correct. After wasting so much time and almost gving up, I thought, why not write about what I am feeling right now. The more imperfect it is, the more perfectly it would capture what I am trying to express. I wrote half an article only to later realize that what I was writing was factually wrong. I started a poem but couldn't capture my true emotions. I have this website and I dont know what to use it for. I want to write, I want to write better, but it does come at a cost. I might write and post a few times and then I might suddenly stop. And it would really make me ask myself, "Did I really want to write or was it just wishful thinking, a passing desire?". Maybe the lack of motivation and the difference I would see between my work and the works of those "awesome" people on the internet would dishearten me a little. I would not be able to stop myself from thinking that I should invest this time in something I could actually get good at. And that's the paradox, we get good at what we give time and effort to. Do I really want to write , I really don't know. There's so much we can do with our life, and choosing just a few things seems really limiting but on the other hand what's the point of being a failure at everything. We cant to everything but at least we can do something.